Incompetent Fool

There is a black deep hole

In my heart darkness engulfs

As the knowledge of my own defeats

Sinks in as if someone pushed in a fork

I feel as if I am going to puke and retch

And slowly my eyes fill with held back tears

Yet I don’t say anything

I’d like to try but I fail

My whole life is like

A train going on a fast course

Toward an impending wall

All this because I am incapable

In life, in love, in every relationship

Thus this world is happy while

Suffocating this incompetent fool…

Prey / Predator (Part 1)

Humans are a complicated and brilliant race of beings. They are almost impossible to understand due to the fact that the human psyche had been improving through the ages. There is an ominous amount of knowledge and historical data that the human brain could store throughout the lifetime of its host.

However, lets strip the human psyche to its core; to its barest necessities: the human instinct. In other words the animal instinct.

What is Instinct? Its not something anyone can learn or be taught. Everyone is born with there instinct. Some might say its a unique, god given gift to each and every human being. Its an important factor which distinguishes one human to the other apart from there superficial features and mannerisms. Instinct is what drives us. It urges us to survive and lead our boring old lives till its end. It might make us unusually good at something or even know about something we do not even have a good skill set at.

But lets focus more on survival. Instinct is like a sixth sense which could make you sense whether its safe or if there is any imminent danger. That makes it called an animal instinct as each animal (including humans) have the urge to survive. For instance how does the deer know that the cheetah in the shadows is a danger or how does a lion know that the unwitting prey is his next meal. All is instinct.

The same can be applied to humans. For instance when you see or meet someone for the first time or get introduced, subconsciously or on purpose, you will do a quick analysis if that stranger. This analysis would lead you to the conclusion whether he or she is a friend or enemy; a victim or an opponent; a predator or prey.

This context can be put into all the different kind of relationships one human has to another:

• Strangers
• Love
• Parents
• Friends

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Accident in Slowwwww motion!

Ever wonder what it’ll be like while you are actually having an accident or falling off your motor cycle or in any way injuring yourself while using an automobile, wonder no more! I had recently got in to such an incident which gave me much experience and more than that more bruises and cuts. So let me describe to you…my readers…in full colour…AND IN SLOW MOTION…the accident.

Well it was a typical alarmingly hot day in male’. Feeling too hot to stay inside my friend and I decided to take a drive around male’ in our motor cycles.

Though our sole intention was just to try to cool off, we can’t help looking around for babes walking with almost small outfits: thank god for the searing heat. Good thing there was an outdoor basketball  tournament which attracts a lot of babes to watch their boy friends and prospective guy friends play :P

Well everything was going well. Feeling the wind in my hair. Letting the metres go by it was a combination of paradise and hell at the same time (searing heat=hell; get it).

Suddenly the world turned upside down…well literally DUH!

(The below description in SLOW MOTION is somewhat fictional as I kind of blacked out the falling part and got to my senses only after falling off)

I was swirling around and around trying to get control of my motor cycle but with no avail.

My muscles flinched at the idea of my body colliding with the concrete hard cement road just below me…OUCH!

My adrenaline pumped. Not in the sense getting ready to shoot the winning goal while playing football or hitting a winner in tennis or a putting a dunk in basketball. But it was more of a panic induced rush.

With my head buzzing with finality of my face having to meet with the concrete road below me, i made a drastic and very foolish mistake…I used the front brake…

Which then brings us back to my world turning upside down.

As i was skidding and falling i thought to myself “Is this really happening. I’m getting in on an accident, FINALLY”.

I don’t know what collided with the ground first. All i can think about was why is the world going dark.

BAM WHOOSH POW WTF OUCH *@#$

After all that ruckus i slowly opened my eyes…to find that a huge weight was pressing on my leg. Just my luck, the whole motor cycle had ended up on my left leg with the silencer making a BBQ out of  it.

Suddenly strong hands gripped mine and pulled me up. It seems the onlookers had a heart to help poor old me to get my motor cycle  off me.

And that was the story 0f how muzay met with the road ( kind of looking for a how i met your mother vibe here:P ). 

 

World Of Warcraft the Ultimate MMORPG drug

I started playing this game called World Of Warcraft (WOW for short) which is all about adventuring a really big ( big in the sense humongous, gigantesque, ominous or all the words in the thesaurus for big :P) environment where you just have to level up by doing anything which may include killing animals or monsters ( which i have an inkling that they are extinct or a dying breed) or fighting player vs player or doing QUESTS.

Its basically a rpg game with almost no boundaries and you could do anything you want and interact with many people in your server.

And you can level up to level 80. Its a fun and time packed ride up to the top.

But the thing is the ride well it takes time and the more you play WOW you would likely tend to forget things like going outside, interacting with your friends and family, getting exercise and ultimately having to say farewell to your social life isn't a happy experience.

But though its a “drug”; a really addictive one at that, you can still get the experience of playing the best ever online game ever made. But, you will need to play it accordingly and not play for hours and hours. Look what happened to me. I ruined a brand new cool laptop by playing it almost more than 12 hours a day without sleep.

So you be the judge of this amazing game and let me know if you want any help with your character.

This is Xlydwen in khazgoroth Oceanic Server signing off saying don't get pulled into the game you yourself controls your destiny (or something corny like that :D )

 

Tennis Coach=Me=I’m doomed (ka-BOOM)

OK! here's the incredible predicament that I've once again landed myself into… I have to become a tennis coach for about 2 months. Its not even guaranteed pay. Just for the good of the tennis association of Maldives.

Its not that coaching is bad but how do i coach while i cant even play well. And always my head rolls around the fact that if I'm not apt as a player my students will also be learning it wrong. For gods sake i didn't even pass the god damn coaching level 1 course. But, it seems there is a shortage of tennis coaches and absolutely no foreign coaches to hang around the court the whole day. Even the players who did pass the exam has got other more pressing matters like extra classes at school or something.

But, duty calls, I've got to step up and be the bigger man and suck it up…do the lessons as best as i could. And did i mention that I have to coach from little kids whose got too much energy and teens who just are too lazy to play well. Talk about contrast.

So lets see what happens…but you know what I’ve got my limits and I’m not coaching without an assistant. If I'm being dragged down into this might as well go guns blazing and drag someone else with me too :P

Feeling of Loneliness

A moment of inspiration hit me with this article

Fate or Co-incidence

Life! The enigma that it is would always be a question to us all. Is it governed by forces beyond our control; namely God? Or just what we make of it. Good or bad arises from our own action though our actions had been affected by others and so on. This unending pattern goes on, yet unknown to us why we do what we do or what happens to us.

For instance luck. It can be either god or bad. But, how does luck come to be. Does Angels and God give good luck whereas Demons and the Devil plaque us with the bane of bad luck. Who knows…?

The future has been an elusive subject for all from the seers through to tarot card readers and normal horoscope maniacs of today. The future could be a single thread or even more complicated. Every single action of ours creates thousands and billions of futures yet the actual future is only determined when it becomes the present. Although one apt in the skill might be able to vaguely narrow down the web of futures to a hundred or less threads plausible for a mere human being to comprehend. But, with all this talk of future; whether it be god given or not, is the future a preordained fate or what we think it will be happens as a coincidence? No one knows and we lament on our weakness!

However, the future is not a domain where human beings are allowed to dwell or we have not the capability yet to achieve such a feat. Hence, being such weak, pitiful creatures of the earth, creations of god, and the prey of the devil and demons, we only have to do with the hand we were dealt with: the present. Strive to make it perfect to pave way for a ‘good’ future rather than a ‘bad’ one. Learn from the past to improve the present to achieve a desirable future.

So take in your stride what surprising and new things which happen to you. Who knows…maybe its fate? God had thrown in the line of fate, grab it and accept your destiny!